The DNR, Funeral Planning, and Time for Me

Today in 2014, I mentioned on Facebook that my mother's horrendous bed wedge arrived (that matched her bedroom walls), that mom's cardiologist wasn't happy with mom's edema, and that I had discovered the DNR (Do Not Resuscitate) and posted it on the side of the refrigerator. That was a handy place, as the kitchen was located just off the entranceway.

The responses I received from my friends to this post were both heartfelt and expansive. Some of my friends went into great detail on how they handled their own parent's DNR and then segued into how their parent sat down to plan their own funerals. My mother did write her obituary, but she was certain no one would come to her funeral or memorial service, so she vetoed that idea. Hospice had other plans, though, and we did get to enjoy a service months after she died. We lost her obituary, though. That's another story.

The cardiologist was a contentious issue, because hospice wasn't happy with the number of visits that he wanted my mother to add to her schedule. Hospice, at that time and place, was into providing palliative care to make the patient comfortable. The cardiologist was intent on keeping my mother alive, which was going to prove to be a losing battle.

Interestingly, both the cardiologist and hospice agreed that my mother should continue to see her nephrologist, the doctor who specialized in the diagnosis and treatment of kidney disease. I think hospice felt it would be good to keep tabs on that one kidney mom had to know more in advance about when her kidney might give up the ghost. I agreed. Cartainty in the face of uncertainty, for me, was vital at the time. That was a healthier compromise for us all.

Another friend wanted me to find a massage therapist for me, not for my mother. But, as I told her, anytime I left the house, I could count on my mother having an emergency situation. I was thankful for mobile phones, but I still didn't have much freedom.

The one joy I allowed myself to have in my trips back and forth between Virginia and home was to stop at the Blenko Glass Factory in Milton, Cabell County, West Virginia. I would pick up one piece, resulting in several dozen pieces that I eventually sold on eBay. The piece I purchased on my last trip to Virginia that ended with mom's death was a rare one. White frosted glass with dimples. I still have that piece.

I took the photo above during one pit stop at Blenko. It was a very colorful place, and I always enjoyed browsing all the interesting shapes and textures. I do miss those visits.